My name is Jason and I’m 36 years old. I’m currently in a program called Jimmie Hale Mission. I’ve been involved with the mission before, but there came a time when I needed further help. My life began to turn for the worst when I thought I had everything going good, but I started to forget about God. You can easily wake up in the morning and forget about God and before you know it, the world has you right where it wants you.
Drugs played an important role in my life, using and selling. It was something I had to have on a daily basis. I started running with a cousin of mine where I learned the tricks of the trade. In this type of business you have to be on your guard. You have to be, how shall I say, TUFF. If someone detects some fear in you, then you might be in a world of trouble. At that time we had so much going for ourselves. I became popular in my city because I was considered to be his little soldier, but people still didn’t respect me so I was tested on a regular basis. I began to carry a gun on a daily basis. Before I knew it, I was in constant shooting battles that I began to love. It was the rush from it all.
Coming from being a kid that was bullied all the time growing up, when I started fighting and shooting back, I became the BAD GUY. And I loved it because there was no one to be found now that would pick on me. Cocaine became normal in my life. I felt like I needed it for the lifestyle that I was living. Then, my cousin which was much older than me was shot five times at close range. The doctor said that was the only thing that kept him alive.
When my father passed, I became lost. I began to feel left behind. My father was very important to me. I couldn’t get past my depression which caused me to use even more. My drug of choice changed from cocaine to crack cocaine. I began to look like a dead man walking. It caused me to miss out on a lot of things in my son’s life. I lost my loyalty and honesty that I had acquired as a child. I just wanted to die, but I didn’t have the heart to kill myself. I used to wish I could go to sleep and never wake up again.
I went to my pastor for help and that was the first time I was introduced to Jimmie Hale Mission. One of many great things that has happened in my life. This last go around has helped me in a way that I don’t even understand. Maybe it’s my faith now that I have in God.
I attended Workfaith Birmingham and I understand my purpose in life now. I have more joy and peace in my life. I know continuing to keep God as the head of my life will help me while I’m in the fire, not help me out the fire. In life there will always be hard times and He will always be there. Everything else will line up according to Him. My relationship with him is daily and I thank Him daily, even in my struggles.